Saving the little humanity in me

I've said it time and again. I really have to find a reason to stay. But now, I can only see reasons to go. I'm such a fool to turn down two better-paying, work free-weekend jobs in two American companies just so I can stay.

Let me do the Math. I work for 12 hours a day, spend 4 hours (or more) traveling from Manila to Laguna and back, sleep for almost 6 hours. That makes 22 hours. The last two hours are spent surfing the net, watching the news, or lying in floor, staring at the ceiling, thinking of anything. The cycle repeats from Monday to Friday (or the occassional Saturday, which happens more frequently now), and I'm left with just a day to see the world and get a life.

But Sundays come and go in a flash. And I'm exhausted. Fatigue is taking its toll on my body and I don't know how long I can keep up. I'm tired and I don't have a life. The Godfather waits on my desk, screaming and asking when will I finally get it out of its package and read it for real. Fallen suffers the same fate.

The more time I spend with my work is the less time I spend with my family. And I hate that. More than anything. There's something about Samsung that robs me of my humanity, raping my soul. Before worse comes to worst, I'll have to call the shots now.

1, 2, 3...SEMPHIL!

Ang trabaho ko, pag petiks, petiks talaga. Pero kapag trabaho, sobrang trabaho naman.

Machine count ang latest task ko. Ang ibig sabihin, bilangin ang lahat ng machines sa buong kumpanya. Ang malaking twist: AKO lang ang gagawa nito. Yes, friends, me, myself and I. Screw everyone. They're too busy doing other things. Eto na ata ang chance para ma-educate ang sarili ko sa process. Siguradong maliligaw ako, pero what the heck, maliit pa sa Tondo ang SEMPHIL, papasaan ba at magkakakitaan din kami ng mga makina di ba? Bwahahaha...

So far, one department down...pero kelangan ko pang i-double check. May mga machine pala akong na miss out kanina. Babalikan ko na lang bukas. Konti na lang naman yun. Ang nakakatakot ay ang pinakamalaking department. Ang estimate ko nasa 500 ang lahat ng machine dun. Bilangan to the max eto! Wohoooo...

Sabi nga ni Sir Gerry, madali lang magbilang. Agree naman ako. Madali lang talaga. Ang mahirap ay yung hanapin kung alin ang scrap, under repair, yung mga nasa overhaul. At ang nakakainis ay ang process na magulo ang lay-out ng machines (lalo na sa Crystal Cleanroom). Nakakahilo na, nakakapagod pa, andami pang sinusuot na kung anik anik. Jusme. Anyway, part naman yun ng mga gagawin ko. At magdadamit uli ako ng kung anik anik sa MLCC Cleanroom. Wohoooo....

Eto pa ang mas malaking catch: Bawal magkamali. 100% accuracy dapat. Like possible ba yun? And more importantly, kaya ko ba ang perfect machine count? Wohoooo...

Sa E-Cap ako bukas. Di ako masyadong familiar dun. Lost ako for sure. Oh well, ganun talaga. E di maliligaw! I can always find my way back. :)

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After more than two weeks, ngayon lang ulit ako nakapanood ng news. Kadalasan kasi ang napapanood ko ay ang morning news tuwing 4.30AM. Pero mas madalas na pinapakinggan ko lang yun at hindi pinapanood dahil busy akong magprepare for work. And in fairness to me, Bandila pa ang pinapanood ko. I miss primetime news. And CNN. And BBC. And The World Tonight. Makapag-five nga. But I have to do the machine count. BOOOooooo....

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My body is too exhausted from my lack of sleep since the week started. I don't know what's causing this. What I only know is I have to sleep. NOW. hehehe

Ang bobo ko. Lech.

Ang bobo ko talaga. Never felt so stupid. Never felt so pressured. Ampness talaga. Hanggang kelan ko ba mararamdaman ang ganito? Ayoko na. Lech.

Iniintindi ko naman e. Bakit parang siya ang ayaw magpaintindi? Parang Prob/Stat lang. Nakakainis. Always the odd one out. Syet talaga.

Nakakadepress. Nakakainis. Langyang buhay. Hmpf.